Selflessness is the Key to Inner Peace.

"I’m terrified of what will happen. I am afraid of what comes next. I feel guilty to think of You. I feel terrible when You tell me how You feel. I feel like I am manipulating You. I feel the doubt creep in. And I tell myself I should stop leading You on. I tell myself how wrong it is for me to use You the way I am. When I think about it, I don’t think I’m using You, but I feel like I am. I tell myself everything I say to You is a lie, that I’m only pretending, that it’s only an infatuation. But, how can it be when I say to You what I do so naturally? Have I become that bad a person? Or is the doubt really getting to me? When I think hard about it, I feel as though it all leads back to something simple: I am afraid to commit to someone again. I am terrified to devote my love and desire to someone. I did it once, You know, and it didn’t end well, not for me at least. Of course, it led me to You, and that is something wonderful. I am telling myself to back out; I do that tons. Committing to someone would lead to something horrible. I know it because it has happened to me before. If You knew how I feel every time I see that person who I committed to at one point, You’d be terrified, too. I guess all in all, I know I want You, but I’m terrified of letting You in. Once I let You in, I give You power; the more power I give You, the worse it ends. When it comes down to You, I’ve got nothing more to lose, so lets just wait and see what happens. I’ll figure it out. I just know when and if the question rises, I won’t know how to respond. All that’s left to say is Fear is the Heart of Love."